been thinking about the difference between aspiration and ambition.. how they are similar in some respects but feel qualitatively different. when i looked up the definitions of both i found the words desire, longing, great, breath and achieve associated with aspiration and the words desire, strive, rank, power, fame and wealth associated with ambition. in my experience ambition is never ending and self berating, it tends towards self and community destructiveness whereas aspiration is from and of the heart, full of ease and inspiration and supportive of ourselves and therefore those around us. they overlap and intersect but i think the qualities of anxiousness, judgement, constriction and overstimulation tend towards ambition whereas aspiration is full, expanding, restfully energetic and generous.
as a society we are full of ambition and our aspirations often take a back seat and therefore our feelings of selfworth as well. today as a practice i am trying to pause and reflect on how far i've come in so many ways, notice how my natural intelligence and capabilities as well as the supportive nurturance of so many in my life have gotten me to where i am and appreciate the processes, the babysteps and leaps and bounds, that i'm currently taking towards who i long to be without getting too far ahead of myself.
maybe today the toes stay on the ground but the energetic line from head to tail lights up, maybe you become aware of the spread of your toes and fingers, maybe a toe or ten lift from the ground, maybe the legs straighten. maybe you find a new opening through the ribs, a corner breath hasn't been for as long as you can remember, maybe the fingertips tickle the underside of your waste or you find new steadiness and ease in a once topsy turvy pose, maybe you catch the fingers with the opposite hand..
where ever you are today, be it in your physical practice, in your relationship to self or others, or your worldly practices of home, work, expression of self.. do us all a favor and give yourself some credit, take a moment to appreciate your achievements and let go off ambitions that are bringing strain, restriction, self doubt into your experience. take a deep breath and start again, more playfully this time.